Just Feeling

Today is a sunny day,but a little unfortunately,we five Chinese girls have an password test.We should have a test after a period of study in fact,to help us find our weakness and bring up.I don't like test but sometimes really want to have a test,like today.I am a little depressed because I find many of them I can't deal with very well.I'm confident in studying but dissatisfied with today's test even though I don't know the result.I really want to know if English is my first language,what the situation of my language expressing.To be honest,I am happy to find some differences between the daily study and test.I need to do some practise but also strength my habitual English knowledge,just like collocation.I need to know more English information because language is variety,how can I expect to be good at English just by school study.Another interesting thing I find is that people can make a progress quickly when they move to a new environment at first,once we get used to normal life,we can't continue progressing.Because there aren't some things urgent to drive us,we can get by easily,especially there are people from your country around you.So what's the purpose of the foriegn language learning,to adapt other nationalities?so how deep should we adapt to?I have many questions about this.If I continue,this should be a question about languages existence.Language is just a symbol of culture.I don't think one person can get into two cultures well if he wants to be good at both.His eyes will be boarden but one of these two must be majority at final.Just like no one believe in two religions,except he is recognizing all of them now.Or we can say culture is disappearing while culture is mixing.I don't know.I can't give a proper explaination to myself now and there are so many things I don't know in the world after all.but I know the first and the most important is that I want to know as much as I can about English and British people and culture and so on between the study here.I must keep my curiosity of recognizing for it is also the original power of study more. I want to know others and I also want others know me.When can I express myself in English as fluent as in Chinese? I have so many things to do to reach my target,so just go ahead,don't slow down.